accepting what is.....

each day I walk past this construction site..and I always smile at the women who work there..one day I noticed a little beige puppy prancing around the site. I never saw its mom or another puppy with it or nearby. I never really thought much about it, just that it was a darling little dog. Today i was walking by again and I noticed that it had a bloody face...so I walked closer and walked up into the construction area and saw that the puppy had been hurt..pretty badly. I had some chicken dog treats in my bag, as i will often feed the street dogs. I went up and broke the chicken strip into little pieces and she started eating it..she was really hungry. I felt so bad for her..the cut was deep. But I wanted to walk away so that she wouldn't follow me...so I went up to a little place to eat and sat down and ordered some food..but I couldn't stop thinking about that little dog. My food came and I could hardly eat...I thought I had to do something to help her. So I asked the waiter if there was a Veterinarian nearby and he in fact told me that Yes, there was. Just up the street....He told me he would go with me to take the dog if i would wait 30 mins.

So I left and went to the nearby tailor's and bought a piece of cloth to wrap her in as she was so dirty and bloody. I went to the construction site..and after they finally understood what I was trying to say, one guy brought her out and handed her to me. I wrapped her in the cloth and walked back to the restaurant and the owner came out and drove me to the Vets office.

I had to sit with his wife for half an hour but the doctor finally returned and told me that he would have to re-cut her eye area in order to stitch it up and it would hurt her. I asked him what else he could do for her. he said he would clean it and give her a shot of antibiotics and it would help her heal more quickly...he did it all free of chagre by the way...

So she got cleaned up a bit and he gave her a shot..he told me that I should keep her...That of course is impossible..though if I could I would. It was heart wrenching for me. he told me not to take her back to the construction area..to take her into Gokulum..and so I did. I wrapped her in the cloth and we walked back to Gokulum. On the way I bought her a bag of puppy food..but she didn't really like it..she loved the chicken strips.

I took her to a safe area in Gokulum near some trees in the grass and sat with her for awhile..she was content and I know she will be safer here. I have seen so many of the shop keepers feeding the dogs around here...so I am hoping she will be safe here.

I slowly walked off as I watched her exploring the new place she will now live. I hope she lives a good long life..and I wish I could have done more to help her...but this is the way it is here..and I know I have to accept it...

Shanti