Saturday, April 26, 2008

do you really have to ask??

home sweet home....

We have passed by a place called "The Rock Shop" for so many years that it's almost obscene....without stopping in. Today was the day!!!! I went to google and found out that it is the 2nd Largest Crystal/Mineral/Fossil store in the US~ how I ask could I have NOT ever stopped in before today??? Who knows...but we had FUN! I found the most beautiful Selenite tea light candle holder ever..and when I spoke to Jay..the wonderful intuitive/shamanic healer/angel..she told me that I should be wearing a Rutilated Quartz and low and behold they had one! The prices were to die for, and I even scored a beauty-full Danburite crystal~ Happy you ask? Ecstatic I am!!
All is right with the world..as my beloved is cooking me a dinner of Breaded Cod with a bit of Indian Spice, over a bed of Spinach/Cilantro Rice and a glass of superb Souverain Alexander Valley Cabernet! No...I have not died and gone to heaven...I am "Home Sweet Home" (oh, and by the way....speaking of Home..my Mother went home today!) like I said before..all is right in the world this evening~

Om Shanti

Thursday, April 24, 2008

The Rose

"The body is the temple of God,
in every body, God is installed whether the owner recognizes it or not.
It is God that inspires you to good acts, that warns you against the bad.
Listen to that voice, and you will not come to any harm."
~Satya Sai Baba
and that is what I did last weekend....
I listened to that voice and it led me to my Mothers side in the ICU unit of Kaiser Hopspital in San Francisco. We never expect her to fall ill...my 84 year old Mother who is stronger than most 60 year olds. She still rides a bike and takes care of her 3 bedroom home, complete with a huge Rose garden in her front yard. You know those cute little homes with the white picket fence and right inside that little white gate is the most amazing Rose garden...with every variety of Roses under the sun. The one house on the block that people drive by and stop in front of, just to take it all in... My Mother and Grandmother both LOVE Roses. They are their most treasured flower and they know their stuff! As she lay there in her hospital bed in and out of sleep, disoriented and mumbling things...I got real close as I held her hand and rubbed her back and she told me many things, most of them were about her Roses...and the swimming pool in the back yard. My tears dropped softly upon her gown and I agreed with everything she whispered to me.
She is much better now, in fact she will be going home tomorrow. That is what she wants to do...
they want to perform open heart surgery on her.......my brother works in the Medical field and told the doctor to forget it. She may go soon, but then again she may surprise us all....all I know is that I watched her face and held her close and told her how much I loved her.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Chakra Necklace and Grounding..

I had been sensing something for awhile....
I went to my big jewelry armoire that sits in my bedroom and pretty much contains everything under the sun..literally! I wanted to wear my Chakra necklace that I had...had being the key word here. It was not in there...who knows where it went, often times I will give pieces away..and then there's that saying..when you are finished learning the lesson...the piece will leave you. I have NO idea where it went...but it seems my lesson was not yet learned. I needed to have a Chakra necklace..that much was very clear to me!
I had dinner with my dear friends heather and nick a few weeks back and heather was wearing the most fascinating piece of jewelry around her neck that evening. Once she pulled it out from beneath her shirt and showed it to me and I felt the energy emanating from it...I had to know more!
So she began to tell me the story of the piece she was wearing and how she came to own it....
there is this very special woman who lives in the bay area and she is quite the special spirit...to say the least....she is a healer, intuitive,shaman...and channeler...her name is Jay Wang and she owns the BlueJay Center. I HAD to speak with her as I was being given suttle messages that led me to her...
I emailed her twice and then I phoned her. She is a very busy lady...but she returned my call one afternoon. And what she told me almost made me drop to my knees. She began by telling me that I needed to be more Grounded...and that my guides were telling her I needed a Chakra Necklace...among many other things she told me...I instantly knew that she was the one who was supposed to make me my Chakra Necklace as she began to tell me how it was going to be designed I almost could "see it" as she explained it to me. I just knew she was sent to me because I needed all of this to further my growth as a healer here on this earth.
I emailed her the day before she actually began to make the piece..and told her I could "feel" it already. I could. But she emailed me later that night and told me that she had laid it out in a circle that day in preparation for the next day when she would begin to construct it! It was all so clear to me...
It arrived today...and I have it on now...all I can say is that it is Very special and the energy that emanates from it is beyond words. I know that this was something that was "in the cards" for me..as I have said before..there are no coincidences...and if you feel the "calling" as I did..
just leave me a message and I can direct you to this very special woman~ it's been an amazing month to say the least!


Thursday, April 17, 2008

Sunset in Varkala

one of my favorite places in India...

no such thing...

There have been some pretty amazing things happening in my life these days....

people showing up who have messages for me that I just seem to need to hear at that specific time...even in passing conversations...words will come out that have extraordinary meaning to me at this time in my life. I know it isn't a coincidence as I have come to learn, that there is no such thing as coincidence. There just isn't. It's already in the cards...

I am meeting some pretty amazing people as well...sometimes when you are young you "wish" for things...and you have no idea that if you just wait 40 years (in my case) your "wishes" do come true. Like they say, "Be careful what you wish for, you just may get it". Well...I have no regrets for what I wished for...and I am feeling quite blessed these days for they are all coming to fruition. Right before my very eyes!

If you take a step back and watch with innocent eyes...you just might be surprised at what will appear~

I know I have said it before..but I must say it again...

It Is such a Magical Life!

Sunday, April 13, 2008

My New Office

I am SO pleased! The space is serene and peaceful~ I love it!

missing you

I'm sure you knew it was coming....
the post about how much I miss India. Lets see...I have been home for 2 months now....wow, has it only been two months?? It feels like forever..as I look through my photos that I took while there this year, I am feeling those feelings again. I can smell the incense, and hear the horns honking, I hear the birds and the morning calls of various workers selling their offerings along the street...and I wish more than anything I was back home in India.
I can't know for sure when I will be back, I do wish it was sooner rather than later.
I have many images around my home and the songs and the incense of course, but it isn't really the same. I will be back one day though...that I know for sure!

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Grace (eventually) Thoughts on Faith

I just finished reading Anne Lamotts newest book..."Grace (eventually) Thoughts on Faith" and as always she did not disappoint! I love her books for many reasons, but one of the reasons that I love her books is because she lives where I lived for 14 years in Marin County...and she always writes about the beauty and Magic of Marin..the hiking trails that I used to frequent, the many small towns surrounding Marin County that I know so very well...different places I used to go...it just makes me feel so melancholy. The fact that she is so passionate about life and how much she adores her son Sam. The last movie I went to at "The Rafael Theater" in San Rafael...she was sitting in the row right in front of me. I said to my husband, that's Anne Lamott...(you can spot her because of her unique look and her blond dreads!) I wanted to tap her ever so lightly on the shoulder and tell her how much I have loved reading all of her books and how much I adore her writing style..its like sitting with a dear friend and catching up on old times. But, of course, living in Marin County I have seen many celebrities...and never once have I done that. (Robin Williams loves it though)...so I just sat back in my seat and sent her love "telepathically" and I just keep reading her amazing books!

Thanks Anne~

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Lali~The baby with two faces

Parents Sushma, left, and Vinod Singh pose with their daughter Lali at their residence in Saini Sunpura, 50 kilometers (31 miles) east of New Delhi, India, Tuesday, April 8, 2008. The baby with two faces, two noses, two pairs of lips and two pairs of eyes was born on March 11 in a northern Indian village, where she is doing well and is being worshipped as the reincarnation of a Hindu goddess, her father said Tuesday. (AP Photo/Gurinder Osan)

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Freedom and Jeff

Freedom and Jeff

Freedom and I have been together 10 years this summer. She came in as a baby in 1998 with two broken wings. Her left wing doesn't open all the way even after surgery, it was broken in 4 places. She's my baby.


When Freedom came in she could not stand. Both wings were broken, her left wing in 4 places. She was emaciated and covered in lice. We made the decision to give her a chance at life, so I took her to the vets office. From then on, I was always around her. We had her in a huge dog carrier with the top off, and it was loaded up with shredded newspaper for her to lay in. I used to sit and talk to her, urging her to live, to fight; and she would lay there looking at me with those big brown eyes. We also had to tube feed her for weeks.
This went on for 4-6 weeks, and by then she still couldn't stand. It got to the point where the decision was made to euthanize her if she couldn't stand in a week. You know you don't want to cross that line between torture and rehab, and it looked like death was winning. She was going to be put down that Friday, and I was supposed to come in on that Thursday afternoon. I didn't want to go to the center that Thursday, because I couldn't bear the thought of her being euthanized; but I went anyway, and when I walked in everyone was grinning from ear to ear. I went immediately back to her dowl cage; and there she was, standing on her own, a big beautiful eagle. She was ready to live. I was just about in tears by then. That was a very good day.
We knew she could never fly, so the director asked me to glove train her. I got her used to the glove, and then to jesses, and we started doing education programs for schools in western Washington. We wound up in the newspapers, radio (believe it or not) and some TV. Miracle Pets even did a show about us.
In the spring of 2000, I was diagnosed with non-hodgkins lymphoma. I had stage 3, which is not good (one major organ plus everywhere), so I wound up doing 8 months of chemo. Lost the hair - the whole bit. I missed a lot of work. When I felt good enough, I would go to Sarvey and take Freedom out for walks. Freedom would also come to me in my dreams and help me fight the cancer. This happened time and time again.
Fast forward to November 2000, the day after Thanksgiving, I went in for my last checkup. I was told that if the cancer was not all gone after 8 rounds of chemo, then my last option was a stem cell transplant. Anyway, they did the tests; and I had to come back Monday for the results. I went in Monday, and I was told that all the cancer was gone. Yahoo!
So the first thing I did was get up to Sarvey and take the big girl out for a walk. It was misty and cold. I went to her flight and jessed her up, and we went out front to the top of the hill. I hadn't said a word to Freedom, but somehow she knew. She looked at me and wrapped both her wings around me to where I could feel them pressing in on my back (I was engulfed in eagle wings), and she touched my nose with her beak and stared into my eyes, and we just stood there like that for I don't know how long. That was a magic moment. We have been soul mates ever since she came in. This is a very special bird.
On a side note: I have had people who were sick come up to us when we are out, and Freedom has some kind of hold on them. I once had a guy who was terminal come up to us and I let him hold her. His knees just about buckled and he swore he could feel her power coarse through his body. I have so many stories like that.
I never forget the honor I have of being so close to such a magnificent spirit as Freedoms.

My dear friend from Marin "Janie" sent this beautiful story to me today....
I hope you enjoyed it as well....
It's a Magical Life we live~

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Life is so Magical

I don't know where to begin...
but Life is so good and it really is so full of Magic everywhere you look.
If you just pause to take it all in, just to be quiet for a small moment..the things you will really see even without using your Eyes...

The way you can touch another persons life..without you even touching them physically....
the emotions that will pour forth, when you least expect it.

This Life, this Gift, we are all a part of this huge wondrous "goings on"..yet is it really going on?
I was moved to tears today...as I am on most days...but when it affects another individual on such a deep level, you can't help but shed a tear of two...

I am so extremely Blessed...
Oh, this Magical Life.....
no words really can describe it all....
it just IS!

Om Shanti~